Storms Ahead

I thought about this post a lot. It has been in my head for a couple of days now and yet, nothing I've mentally written will find its way here. At least not today. I wanted to tell you about failure and how many times I've failed (myself). I wanted to bring forth the idea of failure as a pathway to your true self. I wanted to write about everything that I want IHYL to become, what it should embody, in order to achieve what I originally thought Gravemind could be. But here we are and I will talk about something else.

When I think about my life (and I'm pretty sure for many of you this might actually be the same... well actually I guess it's all of you), there has always been struggle. Childhood. Teenage years. Adulthood. Schools. Jobs. Relationships. Friendships. Family. At times there has been so much noise at once that I simply went to bed, wishing that I wouldn't wake up in the morning. Rest became my salvation as I lived on three to four hours sleep for years. I worked. Studied. Worked out. Tried to maintain a social life. I worked on Massive/Gravemind/IHYL (this whole project) at night. Did music. Tried to maintain bands. Always living on a budget. Of course, knowing the things I know today, everything could've been way easier, but that is the beauty of it, isn't it? To realize that so much of the suffering we experience is caused by oneself - because one's knowledge simply isn't enough. Or, maybe, it is focused on too many things at the same time. And while I sit here and write these lines, I realize that the hardest time of my life is yet to come (maybe it's supposed to be this way). I will tell you more about it, in time. But I'm pretty sure that most of you are currently in the same shoes (regarding obstacles). Sort of. These are a hundred percent character building times and with everything going on in the world, I think it's important to remember that we're still here, still breathing and fighting.

So, no matter how many times you feel like you've let yourself down or disappointed yourself, know I'm out here, probably quadrupling that disappointment in myself. You will be alright, my friend.

So, here's just a short update:

• New video in the works (there's always one in the works, of course)

• Homepage still under construction (so many plans for that)

• Book is in the works as well (I started, but it could take a year or more though, this won't simply be copies of the videos, these texts will go much deeper into details, provide solutions and will be backed by scientific approaches, as well as philosphical principles - and yes, there will be much more time going into the texts than what you can read on this blog here)

• Still optimizing the shop experience (patience, please)

• Soundcloud Archive still missing (my bad, still trying to find a better place though)

I hope that each and every single one of you is alive and kicking out there.

I hope you live.

xGrave